Past to Future

It seems that I spend too much time thinking about the past & being afraid of the future. It also seems the future is coming so fast, day by day, and it’s worse than I imagined. I’m desperately trying to find a reason to go on. I’m so afraid, I’ll have to live through my past again. I can’t imagine, I’m feeling the pain again. I’m desperately trying to find a reason, reason to go on, reason to smile. I’m so afraid, I’ll have to live through my past again. I can’t imagine, I’m feeling the pain again. I lie to myself, I lie when I say I’ll be better. I lie to you, I lie to you when I smile.